I lifted weights for the first time in over a year yesterday.  Needless to say I can barely move today. 

Being off of work for so long has made me miss it dearly, and yet despite that, it was hard to come back today.  I was very nervous...only a few people gave me trouble.

I still need to buy my dogs a doghouse. 

Perez Hilton is full of contradictions, but no one will call him out on it.  I wonder why?  And when I watch that clip over and over again, I hear cheers, not boos...why can't the media acknowledge that either?  They follow along like scared sheep...pathetic

I'm not even really sure anyone reads these things anymore.   Its a far cry from when you would get 32 comments on any random post that you would make almost anyday.  Its really all ok, I can't access Facebook via work, so Xanga it is. 

I am at work and have been since early this morning, Christmas Eve.  It is dead to say the least, with little to no calls coming in, and I don't really feel that well, but here I am.  Run-on sentances anyone? 

I have been having some recurring dreams as of late, and really do not know what to make of them.  I panic allot in my dreams, and its mostly due to college.  Now I have already graduated long ago, and on time I might add, but for some reason, I dream of school and being behind.  It is almost always the same usual story of me slacking off or not even showing up to class until almost the end of the semester, then scambling to make good on grades or even passing almost any way neccisary.  I am not really sure what to make of such dreams, but I hate to think that dreams alone will be adding to my silver hairs that are now showing themselves on my head. 

That leads me to number two.  My hair is slowly changing from raven black to raven black with silver throughout.  I had myself and panic attack or two not that long ago due to an accidental underdose of some meds that I was on, and came out of it with silver hair...everywhere.  I am not accustomed to looking in the mirror and seing shining silver flowing through my black locks, but I suppose this was going to happen sometime.  I do get some comments about it at work, and Liz would like me to get haircolor treatment for it...at this point, I'm not sure it would make much of a difference.

I wonder how others are doing.  I took stock of my life thusfar, and began to wonder about friends past and present.  What will happe with the single friends once I am married?  Do I have to shift to friends who are couples as well?  Why does it take so long to be married?  I know it is nothing to jump into, but I always thought I would be by now. 

How are you?  I really do want to know

I had a dream or vision the other day of my basement.  Not something huge of prophetic, mind you, but just something of what the future could hold, house-wise.  I was curled up on a couch reading a book in front of the fireplace.  It was a lovely dream. 

This hit me on many levels.  First off because my basement if way from being completed.  In fact, it is far from being really started beyond the new heating system.  It does have a fireplace, but I am not even sure how to operate it, and it is all cold concrete with dust and garbage and old boxes...no current place that I would want to curl up at.  The second is the reading portion.  I do have a love for a book in my hands, especially one that takes my away to some other place, at least for a bit, so that wheels in my head begin to turn and I begin to explore the possibilities of someone else's imagination or intuitive thinking for at least awhile.  I have had quite the relationship with reading over the years, and despite the fact that it has been and on and off one, I have always found a reason or way to come back to my love. 

I do want to do great thing in the house that I live in, but when I start to think of it all, it get overwhelming.  I really never know where or when to begin and how much I am supposed to spend on such projects.  Research time comes down to a minimum due to my work schedule and responsibilities at home.  I sometimes wonder how people do these sorts of things.  How do you manage the stress of it all on your own?  Where is the time?

The electrical in the hosue still needs some work, although it is much better than it was when I moved in.  The lighting needs alot of work, and I would like to add recessed lighting in the house as well.  The old kitchen cabinets will need to go sometime soon, as will the countertops and the leaky fixtures in the sink.  That will be a huge undertaking in and of itself.  The half bath needs new fixtures and paint becuase nothing works there but the toilet.  Eventually, cosmetic work will need to be done and that will entail the main bathroom and its cheesy 1970's skyblue paneling on the walls and floor.  I quite sure I will fine some horrors when I pull that away as well.  The rooms all need work in one way or another up to and including all of their own lighting systems. 

My dogs have almost completely ruined my back sunroom.  By ruined, I mean they have done their buisness all over the place there.  I still don't have a dog house for the out back, because I can't really find one thats good for cold conditions that's not under $800, and they keep getting out of their fenced in area out back anyways.  With the amount of hours I am pulling at work, Im not exactly sure how to tackle this.  I want to rent a rug doctor and steam clean the heck out of that room, but I know they will do their buisness there again, and its getting colder outside. 

Any ideas would be welcome, and any prayers would be welcome further.  None of this is dire, but with me being out of comission for so long before, I am well behind in getting my house ready for winter.